to: @choicemtn
from: @windsorgirllove
Merry Christmas! Or more specifically Merry Finals at the time I’m writing this. I really hope you enjoy!
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Phi was going to die.
Well, not physically. But emotionally, probably. Academically, definitely.
She had fallen asleep on the library. Apparently this school couldn’t pay for decent security guards, cause she had been locked in. She wasn’t even tucked away in a corner; she was in one of the computer banks, out in the open. The keyboard had left painful red indents in her face. She growled, pushing herself off the hard plastic seat while rubbing at her cheek. The library was dark.
She checked her phone. 2:58. Only 12 more hours until her final term paper was due and she could finally collapse. She picked up her bag and headed for the front door.
Locked, of course. Phi knelt down, placing her bag beside her, and peered at the door latch. She could pick regular locks pretty easily – learn how to one boring summer – but she didn’t know what to do about an electronic lock. It was probably rigged to set off an alarm, too. That would be a great way to end her first semester at college, getting kicked out for breaking into the library. She fell back to a sitting position and put her chin in her hands. Maybe she could just stay there until morning. Freak out the librarians when they finally arrived.
She sighed, falling back and stretching on the floor. This was hard. College was hard. Life was hard.
It wasn’t supposed to be.
She wasn’t supposed to be stumped by a simple locked door. She wasn’t supposed to have put off an essay until the very last moment. She wasn’t supposed to be falling behind.
Phi let out a frustrated scream, kicking the ground. Then, abruptly, all her angry energy left her. Her stomach growled. She groaned and pushed herself back up. The basement was supposed to have vending machines.
Her footsteps were especially loud on the echoing steps down. She should probably be more worried about making so much noise. But it’s not like anyone would hear. That would be too lucky for her.
She punched the numbers into the machine and leaned against it, surveying the basement study area. They’re were bean bag chairs in some of the private study rooms on the top floor. Maybe she could just sleep here. That would be nice – a quiet night, for once. She couldn’t get comfortable in her own room. She was an only child. Sleeping with another person in the room was… weird.
Phi tore the wrapper off the chocolate and took a big bite of it. Food made her brain feel a little clearer. She couldn’t sleep – not yet. And she couldn’t stay here either. There were probably other exits from the library. Maybe she could climb from one of the windows. There was also the cafe – they had to have a door in the kitchen or something.
She strolled through the basement, looking around. Most of the basement was dedicated to the archives. She had spent most of her time upstairs, in the private study rooms. It’s the only chance she got to be alone. It’s what she wanted.
Alright, no. No it’s not what she wanted. That’s what she was used to. It’s what she was comfortable with but it wasn’t what she wanted. She just didn’t know what she wanted. Not this, certainly. Not college.
More specifically not locked in the library in this shitty college by herself. There wasn’t any escape route from the basement, unless she fancied digging. She tramped up the stairs, munching her chocolate bar. She just wanted to get out of here. Out of this college, out of this town. Find an apartment, get a shitty job, get a cat. Disappear from the lives of everyone she ever knew. Find some new friends.
The cafe door wasn’t locked, although she half expected it to be. She hopped the counter, wandering into the kitchen. There was one door, leading out to the terrace where students would sit during the warmer months. Phi rushed to it, jiggling the handle. Locked, of course, but locked normally, not electronically. She crouched down, glaring at the keyhole while she fiddled with her hair. Her bangs fell in her face as she removed her hairpin and bent it back. It slid into the lock, clicking as she moved it around. Before long the lock sprung open.
She stopped to pin her hair back, repositioning the flower pin in her hair. Then she grabbed her bag and slung it over her shoulders, and escaped.
There was a tall hedge of bushes surrounding the terrace and pinning her in. Phi growled and stepped up onto the brick base of the planter. She had no time or patience to try finding the easiest route. Just the shortest.
The branches tore at her hair and her skin, but she pressed on, fueled by determination and late night desperation. Eventually, gasping, she made her way to the other side. She stood panting. Fucking finally.
Phi slumped to the ground, shivering. It had been so warm this afternoon when she left for the library, but now at night the December chill finally made its appearance. She hugged her knees to her chest. All her energy from before had left her, and she felt exhausted. Phi closed her eyes. She just wanted to open her eyes and be somewhere else.
There was something strange pressing at the back of her mind. She closed her eyes tighter, willing it to go away. But it kept growing. It was like the worst migraine she had ever had times ten. She let out a groan as it kept building. Her eyes shot back open, and everything was blurry. She tried to get to her phone, call for help, or even shout, but she didn’t get a chance before she passed out.
When she woke up she was staring at a blank gray ceiling.



